woke up @ 7 to found out that my tongue and throat got a few ulcer, aite still ok and den my stomach starts to churn abit.. but i didnt care much so i went to bath...i felt the water was really cold, even at the norm temp i use to bath... so i went to take the thermometer... *beep* 38.2... i was like O.O wtp... ok i better go check out the doc.. so i smsed khye n pui... i went to the doc @ 9pm and check out what happened... but in the middle of waiting for the doc...

A sms came to me "kenneth: Guys please pray for nick. He's not feeling well." kinda lead me to think, am i part of Proj O? why just him? slowly it leads me to thinking.... all the while when i am sick and sorta thing... no one sms me either... why do i request for such? why @ times when i was talking to sumone and den when i ask hey what are u doing 2molo... "2molo we practicing @ 2pm mah u dunno meh?".... why @ times when i am in studio when all of them talking a certain thing and i ask what issit abt ppl will say "why u everything also dunno one". Why do i feel i am in my own cg called DN2 rather than DN1.. why? i think i truly am sumone that is kinda invisible in DN1... totally... i am just another burden i gues....

Me:"i am the weakest in proj O."
"ya i can see"
Me:*fake grin*


Me:"where u all now?"
"we all now at orchard, chilling out and having fun without you!"
Me:"ok bb"
(is that necessary?)


do i get the chance to explain the hurts? i guess no one really cared much.


"hey Jacky u have money mah i am like really poor now"
Me:"i tot i told u that i will return u when the pay come"
"yea but i'm like really poor now"
Me:*phone rings answers the call*
(if u understand already that i am really poor to the point where i get only $50/2 weeks and tat the pay really hasnt much come in yet, den the details are more than sufficient to tell u not to ask me and if u have to ask me, ask me in sum other place like not in a taxi with other ppl around, what will u feel when i ask u for the money to return when i know u do not have the finance to return me infront of ur friend?)
tho i still thank you for the times u have treat me and stuff

Me:"hey can i drink?"
*remains quiet*


Me:"hey i help u take bag?"
"nvm its ok"

Me:"hey u wanna seat?"
"dun wan"

This way round u r just making the man embarass and rejecting their manhood..
tho i still regret the time of not being able to help pui man in carrying the bag away for the tray
(well yea where's my manhood)


"The unstable award"
*points at me*
Me:*fake laugh*
(so much so of being in a cg being loyal for so long..)


*in position*
Me:"omg lac la, we're in a team"
"but its like so long ler, COme on!"
*fake laughs* X 4

it's been so many time i've pulled back my temper, exchanging a roar for a smile or a laugh... can i do it anymore?


"Hey i feel ur this and this arh cannot make it, u r applying too much of ur style"
Me:"yeah i have to learn the steps b4 i apply the style in"
"yeah but its better for u to learn the steps and the style"
Me:"yeah i will do so once i nail down the steps"
"but if u get stick to ur own style too much u will stick with it forever"
Me:"but i have to nail down the steps first don i"
"yea i guess its ur way.... But i feel u wont make it like this"

why do u wanna add ur own comment in the last sentence? haiz...

there's so much i wanna rant... so much i wanna tell to a person..... so much i just need to shout out... Lord take it all..... just take it...

i wish my cousin didnt have to leave on tues...

- 10:21 PM

Original Me

Name: Jacky Lam Wan Tsun
Who stole my burger!?





Yes hello! =) just to let u know if u really hope and wish to destroy my life, u can choose to do so, but karma strikes my friend, im just an nsf, when im done with this shit, im gone so whats the point with meddling with my life so much? I have a life outside, i've only myself to depend on and i've got only 1 parent, that's my mum.. so if destroying my family is what u want, retribution awaits. Peace.

Oh yea and seriously, get a life =)
Puiiiii Blonde Polar Jacq